Christmas Eve 2014 Message

This post was originally written back in 2014 for the Lego Church Project FB page and was shared Christmas Eve of that year. It has the same themes as the last two Christmas Related posts. As I've been rereading it. I am reminded of how powerful the message remains. That is why I've decided to add it to the blog. God Bless and Merry Christmas! -JM

Christmas Eve is here. Soon we will be celebrating with our family and friends. Some of us will have company coming over. Others will be the ones traveling to visit. All Christians across this nation bound by a common thread: The celebration of the birth of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.

But as we gather with our friends and family. Let us take a moment to stop and reflect of the kind of world we live in. Why it is an important time to keep everyone in prayer these days. Our world is filled with chaos. Violence in our streets and across the world. Terrorist groups that seek the destruction of any ideal they oppose. Countries threatening harm to other nations that would stand up for basic human rights and dignity.

In some places with in the world Christians must celebrate in secret. They live in a place where they do not share the same freedoms as you or I have. Their is a constant threat of violence or even death. All because they believe in Jesus Christ.

Much closer to home many families are struggling to make ends meet. They can hardly put food on the table. Let alone gifts under the tree. Some have lost family members around this time. Making the holidays much more difficult time. An elderly neighbor who cannot go out because they have no where to go. Or because they have no one around them. Their are many places where people will be spending time in nursing homes or even hospitals.

Christmas is not only just a time to celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ. More importantly it is a time for prayer. For those who are suffering. For those who are struggling. That the violence in this world would end. That those who commit such acts would realize that violence does not solve problems. It makes things even worse.

Christmas is also a reminder that we have the power to turn prayer into action. By giving of ourselves. Helping those around us any chance we get. We can do what God has asked each and every one of us. As we celebrate Christmas, let us look into our hearts, to see what we can do to answer that important call. That perhaps this Christmas we can be the answer to someone's prayer. Which would be the biggest present of all...

Donations Revisited

Support for the Project

The Lego Church Project FB Page

With out the help of others this project would not be where it is at. Thanks to the donations I've received I've been able to do a lot more than I otherwise would. I'm deeply humbled by the kindness and generosity of others. Because of that with the Season 18 project I've been able to obtain new bricks to replace worn out parts. New parts for added details. Base plates and other items to help with the project. I've also been able to provide gas money for transportation.

I get asked all the time if I take donations. I'm on disability. My income is extremely fixed and the cost of living goes up. LEGO is not cheap. Even on the used market. Which is why I accept donations either in direct cash via PayPal or people sending me LEGO directly.

So here is the current wishlist of LEGO and non LEGO items I can use for the project:

Point and Shoot Digital Camera: This is something that I need to replace. Both the cameras are getting worn out and the quality of images is not that good for the LEGO. Cellphone Cameras are nice but don't work as well as I would like.

Sport Style Video Camera: This is more wishful thinking. I would like to shoot some decent video of me working on the project along with going to some of the display locations. I found when using the point/shoot and cell phone cameras the audio quality was horrible. The idea is to create some videos I can post to youtube.

LEGO (link goes to bricklink): I'm always looking to replace existing parts. Almost 20 years of The Project and those parts get put under a lot of stress with the transport. Stuff breaks. Plus I have some "clone" brick which needs to be sorted out and pitched. The poor quality bricks make building a challenge since they don't share LEGO high level of quality.

You can see the full Amazon Wish List and get an idea of what else I'm looking it.

If you have LEGO that you are looking to part with drop me an email to kc8wzm@gmail.com and I will give you my address. Be more than happy to take it off of your hands.

For Money Donations go here: https://www.paypal.me/LegoChurchProject

The "Support for the Project" Goes into a bit more detail about why I need donations along with other suggestions on other ways you can help.

I could also use some major Prayers. Season 18 had seven displays. The most I've ever done with any of my showings. So please pray that some doors open up and locations with transportation can be secured. Would love to get some locations locked in early so I can really build up this season. The Project is as Passion of mine. A gift that needs to be shared with others. A big thank you to everyone who supports me and helps me out. I am forever grateful.

Till Next Time!

-JM


Revised 1-2-18 (near rewrite)

Project Post 12/23

(cross posted from The Lego Church Project FB page)


Christmas is a joyful time. A time to spend with family and our friends. However not everyone is able to see the joy of the season. Sometimes the holidays have nothing more than painful memories. Their are many in this world who are homeless, home bound, or out right alone in this world. They have no one to help them in their time of need. Their are many who are spending the time in the hospitals. Dealing with medical challenges that we cannot even begin to understand.

As we spend time with our loved ones over the course of the next few days. Take a moment of your time to pray for those who are in need. Pray for those who struggle with this season. For those who have no one in their lives. That the Lord would offer them some comfort in their isolation. That as we approach Christmas Eve that we would be joyful at the birth of Our Savior. At the same time be humble in remembering all who are in desperate need. God Bless and Merry Christmas.

-JM

Reflection 12/21

(Cross posted from the Lego Church Project Page).

Christmas is a special time of the year. We spend our days gearing up to spend time with family and friends. For me Christmas is about celebrating the birth of Our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Such a small child was given the power to change the fate of the world.

But Christmas for me is also a prayer. For peace in our troubled world. An end to violence on all levels. For the poor. Those who are troubled with issues of money and of spirit. For those in jails and in prisons. That they would find redemption though Christ. A prayer for the lonely and home bound. A prayer for those who are in nursing homes and hospitals. That Christ with be with them always. Of course a prayer for those who are living with disabilities or other health challenges. That though our suffering Christ would open our hearts to a deeper understanding of the faith. For healing of our minds and bodies.

Christmas is a time where all who proclaim Christ should open their hearts to the will of God and do more to help those around them. To avoid sending the message of God's wrath and condemnation. Instead putting our focus into God's love, compassion, and above all else God's unending mercy.

Merry Christmas to you all.

-JM

Poetry 2

A long time ago I use to write all the time. Their was a fun challenge in taping into my very soul to see what I could find....


The Endless Noise
JM Kraemer

In the stillness of the night,
we long to hear the silence

For in the emptiness around,
such things as quiet do not exist.

A place that can bring peace,
fails to do so in our lives.

Stalked we are always,
By the noise only we can hear.

To hold out hope that someday,
we are freed from this eternal enemy,

This sound that seeks ever slowly,
constantly trying to consume us.

Their is an agony in what we hear,
for us it is a silent cry of despair

Facing a battle head long,
yet knowing for now winning will not be.

A struggle that is daily in our lives,
to be able to enjoy the simple things.

While most enjoy being in a quiet room,
for us it is like being trapped in hell.

Grim is the reality of the fate we always see,
With no real escape from this struggle.

In the stillness of the night,
we long to hear the silence.

In the stillness of the night,
we long for our freedom to do so.

For while you enjoy your quiet,
All that we will ever hear is the endless noise.

Fr Solanus

With in the last few years it is not uncommon for me to dedicate a project to someone who has an open cause for Sainthood. This is done by including a picture or statue that is placed somewhere inside the project. Over they years I have featured Saint John Paul II, Fr. Michael J. McGivney, Fr. Patrick Peyton. I didn't do one for Season 17. Not fully sure why. Wasn't even planning on doing it for Season 18. However God had something else in mind. If I am going to include someone it is done in the early stages so I can make the picture more visible. I want people to see the image clearly so they can get an idea of who I have included. By the time I had the project half way built. It normally would have been "too late" with out some kind of major redesign.

Ever have something placed on your heart in such a profound way that it cannot be easily dismissed or ignored? That was the moment I had when I called the monastery down in Detroit. I suspect the people answering the phones had no idea who I was or why I was asking for a "wallet sized photo". You mention "Lego Church" or "Lego Church Project" and your bound to get a lot of confusing looks. But once again God clearly had an idea in mind. They sent me some pamphlets and sure enough. One of the images once cut and sized would work. The image was a bit larger than normal. But it fit into the frame I built with out much trouble. I decided on the location. Even with the image/frame being bigger than I would have preferred. It still worked! Even with the walls, not even finished, from a distance you could look in the back and see who it was. Also even being over sided it comes across as a bigger than life painting when next to one of the mini-figures. I can't even begin to describe my emotions when they announced that Fr Solanus was going to be beatified. Mind you the Season 18 project build was finished by that point. Clearly God had a plan in place.

Their is a deep connection between Fr Solanus and my family. My late Grandmother, Margret, was a strong supporter of his and knew him in life. I knew about him before most people did. After she passed I got one of the small prayer cards with a small cutting of cloth that had been touched to his tomb. It remains in my wallet and is always with me. So in some ways I have taken up her devotion. It is a cause that I am drawn to more so than others. This past Sat was the Mass for Fr Solanus. I was unable to attend. But that is not what God had planned for me. What I do know is that this has been one of the busiest seasons of the project in a very long time. I firmly believe that Fr Solanus had a direct hand in that.

Soon the Season 18 project will be nothing more than a memory and will be taken down in Jan. Such is the nature of the project. A full life cycle from start to finish. However in this case that will not be the end of Season 18's impact. The image and the frame will be pulled out and a small stand will be constructed that the frame can sit in. That will go on to a shelf where I keep the statue of Saint John Paul II that was used in Season 14. A humbling reminder of the blessings of Christ and away of saying thank you to Fr Solanus for hearing my prayers.

Till Next Time.

-JM

Important display Part 1

I am often humbled by the response I get when it comes to The Project. With each passing year it is something that I always take to heart. The freedom to be able to create something that people enjoy. The Christ the Good Shepherd display (St Helen) is the most important of any display.

The reason for this is because this is my home parish. It is a place where I grew up. I have a lot of history with this place and it is a church that I am proud to be a member of. It is also a celebration of Christmas and the chance to share my love of the faith with others during the season. It is why I try and encourage as many people as I can to come out to this display.

It also the conclusion of the current season and in some respect the prelude to the next build. After this showing their will be no more Season 18. Each year stand on it's own as a testament to the deep Passion I have for the Catholic faith. I pray that you would come out and see this passion during the final display of Season 18. What makes this display even more special is the history. This will be the 15th project I have brought over. So you have the invitation to come on out starting in Dec to see this project and to see a wonderful parish as well. 

Till Next Time

-JM

With each year...

With each year that passes by. I am often surprised by my own ability to create the Lego Church Project. Their is a level of patience that is required. Something that I'm not known for having. Yet sitting down at the bricks can be rather fun. I guess you could say it's organized chaos in motion. If you've ever seen any of the galleries or see me work on the project in person you can tell what that is like.

On a typical day I'm working on at least five or six sections at once. Sometimes going back over and making major changes as I'm building. Of course their is a healthy level of fear involved that I fight with. Will it hold up to the end and will I have enough parts to complete it are the common ones. But it is that fear that drives me even harder. To know that I have a lot of experience so even when something doesn't go according to plan I can still go with the flow.

Keep in mind though I'm doing this because I enjoy it. I find the challenge helps me. I enjoy people's reactions. The joy they get out of seeing what I am doing. I enjoy sharing my story. This project is a yearly gift to the community. Something that needs to be shared with others. Not locked away somewhere. I pray that I always remain humble and thankful to those who support me in what I am doing. It is the fuel that fires the engines of creativity. Allowing me to do what I do best.

Advent is coming up fast. The Season 18 project will be at Christ the Good Shepherd here in Saginaw. This is the last display with this season and for me one of the most important ones. The end of the journey and the prelude to the next. This year however is special. This will be my 15th project that I have brought to this parish in a row. A long standing Christmas tradition. One that I hope and pray you will share with me. You are invited to come out to see what I am doing. To see what God has done in my life. By helping me to build faith. One brick at a time.

Till Next Time.

-jm

Reflection 11-5

Another evening goes by and another attack takes place. Another moment for the various groups to fire up their banter and demand extreme change. Been following stuff unfolding on twitter and to be honest it didn't take long for the anti-religious groups to jump down on those of us who posted public prayers. Those who are anti-guns to demand radical changes to the existing laws. With some feeling that guns are the only problem. I can understand their frustration. It is easier to blame the weapon of choice instead of the darker truth that we are afraid to admit to ourselves: No new laws would have changed anything. The attack in New York proved that point. Evil will use what ever tools it can find to strike in our hearts. Doesn't always have to be a weapon in a conventional sense.

Perhaps the issues at play are not so much about the choice of the weapon. But rather the spiritual bankruptcy we have these days. Perhaps we have opened up the doors in our hearts to a darker evil and have not even fully realized it. In our daily lives. We blow off our commitment to Church because we don't see the benefits of it. We let petty disagreements distract us from Christ and we avoid going to Church because of it. We don't make time for God, for prayer, because things are going good in our lives. Think of it this way. When we have Christ in our life. When we embrace him fully. Evil cannot destroy our spirit. When we go out of our way to push Christ aside. Forcing prayer our of the public circle. Removing Crosses and such. We allow evil to enter into our hearts. Before we can change the nation. We must first change ourselves. To look deeply into our own hearts and realize that above all else we must seek Christ. To find that peace so we can give that light to those who need it most. People want to knock prayer. But doing that won't solve the problems. Showing mercy and compassion even when you disagree with them. Can open up the doors of peace with in us. So that we as a society can become better. To live as Christ would have us live. Though the road is by no means easy one.

Till next time.

-JM

A small favor to ask

My friends I need a small favor. This Sunday Oct 22nd I'm going to be at the Mt. Zion Catholic Community in Flushing, MI for a Lego Church Project display. This is a bit of a home coming for me given that it has been years since I've brought one of my projects out. This is the place where the project that became Season 1 was displayed at. Way before the media attention.

What I'm asking is to share the word about this display. I would love to see a bigger than normal turn out for this display. The Mt. Zion Catholic Community has been a big supporter of my work and it is well worth taking the time to check them out. I have been praying for a good turnout. Their is a good chance I will also be there the following weekend (Oct 29th). But these displays cannot be pulled off with out people coming out and seeing for themselves what God is doing in my life. But it is more than that with this display. It's also a chance to see the Mt. Zion community as well. They have had their own journey in this world and their story is an amazing one. Check out the links provided and see what God is doing for us. If you need more info drop me an e-mail at kc8wzm@gmail.com. -JM

Mt. Zion Catholic Community

Support For the Project

The Mt. Zion display

The Season 18 project is coming out to the Mt. Zion Catholic Community over in Flushing, MI starting Oct 18th. Mass is Sunday at 10:30am. The Community Center is located 8228 N McKinley Rd, Flushing, Michigan 48433.

The display is one that is more personal to me than most. It's a place I don't get to visit often. But it is the first place I ever took one of my projects to. If your in the area PLEASE stop on out and check out the community and the project. Would love to see a lot of people turn out to see on of my projects in person. The pictures are nice. But they don't do this justice. Share the blog post. Get the word out. Would really mean a lot to me.

Till Next Time

-JM

Prayer

I've been wanting to write this blog post for a while. Given how important I feel prayer is in the Catholic life. With the recent events it has opened up the mind and given me the freedom to do so.

Their are many in this world who would tell you that prayer is worthless. They would scream it from the roof tops if they could about how useless it is. They believe that they are empty words that do nothing for anyone. But to me prayer is something more. Those who openly proclaim Jesus Christ as their Savior and redeemer believe in something far greater than themselves. They accept that their is more to life than their own desires and wants. They commit themselves to following the teachings and doing their best hold fast to the message and Good News of Christ. We are not perfect. Which is why God sent His Only Son for us. For me prayer give me a deeper focus on what goes on around me. Seeking deep and profound wisdom in the best and worse times of our lives. A spiritual tool against the forces that would seek to destroy us from with in. It is seeking an understanding that we cannot always get from the world around us. More so when fear and anxiety seek to derail us. It is not about providing "magic answers" but rather clarity from a spiritual perspective. Personally I use prayer daily in my walk with Christ. It guides me. Shows me paths that in my own mind I might not always see. It can also give me a sense of peace. Even when I feel like the walls are caving in around me. I feel better over all when I take the time to pray. Not just when things are going bad. But even when times are decent. That is the nature of being a follower of Christ. We live in very troubling times. Events are unfolding that shake is to the core of who we are. This is why we pray. For Peace in our own hearts. Compassion for those around us. Even when they show hatred. Strength to handle things in our lives. The Wisdom to do the right thing. The Courage to face our darkest fears. Because Christ is the light that shines in the darkness. We who are His followers carry that light in our hearts. Surrender to Christ All Things. Even when we are mocked for what we believe. 

Till Next Time

-JM

Reflection for Oct 2nd

  The events of the day have me troubled to no end. Following the social feeds on both facebook and twitter is a lesson in frustration. Everyone seems to have a radical opinion of what needs to be done to stop the violence in our society. We know something has to be done. But we are divided as to what path we should take. The answers are not as simple as some would have you believe. Such things never are. History has taught us much but in the end we sometimes tend to glaze over it to suite our own personal agendas. We should as a nation be shocked and outraged at the violence we have seen unfold. But we should also be reminded that this is a constant cycle where lives are taken every day due to gun violence. Every major city has some kind of issue going on. It is so common place that the only times it gets our attention is when a large number of lives are lost at once. Such as the events in Las Vegas. We have become desensitized to the issues at hand and refuse to hold leadership accountable for the failings that allow the daily violence to continue.  Still it is hard to make sense of the senseless nature of this recent attack. One that shakes me to my core. We have had many chances to look into the issues at play and yet nothing gets done. Until we take a hard look at the issues at hand nothing will.

  Lately, more so given these troubling times, I have felt this deep welling inside my own soul to recite the Rosary every day. More so than  have at any time in my life. A gentle tug in my heart that this is something that I should be doing. But it is also a feeling that has gotten stronger inside me. It is more than a request from Our Most Holy Mother. It is a plea to all who call themselves Catholic. It is our Mother's cry to bring peace in our hearts. A cry to her faithful to honor the faith as we should. A reminder that While Christ is the light of the world. Mary, Our most Blessed Mother, is the Lantern. It is a request from Her that we can no longer ignore and should encourage to all who call themselves Catholic. 

I'm sure at some point I will write more on this. But my heart is too troubled right now. So I close out this reflection with the Prayer of St. Francis:

Make me a channel of your peace. 

Where there is hatred let me bring your love. 

Where there is injury, your pardon, Lord 

And where there's doubt, true faith in you.

Oh, Master grant that I may never seek

So much to be consoled as to console 

To be understood as to understand 

To be loved as to love with all my soul.

Make me a channel of your peace

Where there's despair in life, let me bring hope 

Where there is darkness, only light 

And where there's sadness, ever joy.

Make me a channel of your peace

It is in pardoning that we are pardoned 

In giving to all men that we receive 

And in dying that we're born to eternal life.

 

Till Next Time

-JM

Reflection for 9/26

Reflections are my personal writings that often start off as FB posts then get posted to the blog. They are my own explorations of how I see the Catholic faith.

"Surrender to Christ all things." That has been a reoccurring expression in many of my reflections over the years. A message, that from my understanding, opens our hearts up to something deep and profound. Most people connect surrender with giving up. As in welcoming defeat from a powerful foe. That is not how I look at it. This isn't about winning or losing. Rather it is acceptance that though our Savior all things are possible. That no matter what storm we face Christ is with us always. In this respect it is not so much of giving up. But rather calling on and embracing something that is stronger than ourselves. It is a constant reminder that when we have reached our weakest moments. Christ desires to walk with us during those times and give us hope. I think the best way to explain what "Surrender to Christ all things" means is to say that it is putting total and complete trust in Christ. Even when we ourselves cannot see the road that we are traveling on. The challenge becomes that it is easy for even me to say that to someone. But extremely difficult to put into practice. The world moves on and the daily struggles of life gets to us. It is hard to see how anyone could put their faith in the Son of God. Yet we as followers of Christ are called to do just that. Even in times when it seems like the storms are trying to drown us. Christ stands on the waters extending his hand to pull us up. It is a powerful image that reminds us of how important Christ is in our daily lives. Surrender to Christ all things. Our fears. Our anxiety. Our worries. Our needs. Our hopes. Everything that would trouble us give to the Savior. Take the time to spend it in prayer. Knowing that by embracing Christ. All things are possible.

Till Next Time

-JM

Reflection 9-25

I see the world around me and often wonder if the world is going to tear itself apart at the seams. But even more so on deeper reflecting, looking back though the very history, did people like me feel the same way about the times they were living in during the past. Wondering how people were thinking during the daily and nightly news reports during events such as WWI or even WWII. The challenges and the fear that came about with the changes to the Catholic faith though Vatican II. Where people just as scared, if not more so, during those crisis as some of us feel right now with the current events? It feels to me that with each generation. New challenges present themselves. Some of those challenges turn into epic controversies that on one hand seem to want to tear the country apart. But at the same time serve as distractions from the greater issues a play. Events not just on a national level. But on the level of the world.

We very much live in an age where information is at our finger tip. We now have access to media that even I never even though of growing up. More so now than in previous generations. So that fear becomes more present and more expressed by the people. We gain access to that fear a lot quicker than ever before. Instead of seeing the news played out nightly or daily in the papers and TV. We can log into social media and have instant access to what is going on around us. Both the good and the bad. Sometimes we can take things out of the proper context and build up with in us a sense of rage and fear when for now a calmer mind is needed.

As I've been pondering on recent events. I've also been reminded of something that I've been known to say. "Surrender to Christ all things." For me it is a reminder that as a follower of Christ. That no matter what happens in the world. The path of Christ always remains true. That in moments of darkness, Christ, is our light. In moments of confusion, Christ, brings clarity. That in moments when we are scared out of our mind. That by surrendering all to Christ we find comfort and an inner peace we otherwise would not have. It is a reminder that while nations rise and fall. Christ remains eternal and unchanging. Even when it feels like the world is changing all around us. I would like to think that someone like me in the past felt the same way as I do now here in the present. That no matter what goes on around us. Surrender to Christ all things.

Till Next Time

-JM

Mini Review: Catholic Hipsters Handbook

The Catholic Hipsters Handbook (Amazon)

This post is a short review of Tommy Tighe's Catholic Hipsters Handbook. The book is more or less a collection of short essays by several authors in addition Tighe's own contributions. The subtitle of this book is Rediscovering Cool Saints, Forgotten Prayers, and Other Weird but Sacred Stuff. Which pretty much explains what you will find with in these pages. Though out the course of reading you will explore various elements of the Catholic Faith. At the end of each segment the various authors suggest a less than well known Saint. Such as St. John Bosco or Fr. Solanus Casey. It goes into the inns and outs of various purely Catholic things. The segments are bite sized but contain a lot of information packed in. Each of the contributing authors present things in a very easy flowing and down to earth writing style while at the same time quietly encouraging the reader to explore the Catholic faith more deeply.

Personally I rather enjoying reading this. I gained some new insight into my own faith and have that desire to explore things more deeply. If you are looking for something to check out this book is very much worth it. Now if you will excuse me I need to go look something up....

Till next time.

-JM

I enjoy this. (Displays)

Doing displays with the Lego Church Project is one of the fun aspects of what I do. Though sometimes it can be a challenge to get the project to a location. Once set up their is the interaction with the people that is always fun. A chance to show what I am doing and sharing it with the community. I really enjoy the social aspect of what I do. Talking about not just what goes into the building. But also sharing the mission of what goes into my reasons. Even for my short afternoon displays that I do sometimes. It is that interaction with people that often fuels the creative fires and makes such things possible. It is something I enjoy. My personal feeling has always been that my talent is a gift from God and that talent should be shared with others. Which is why I'm always looking for places to take the project and to share the message. I am very thankful to the people who have supported me in this journey of faith. Season 18, dedicated to the life of Fr. Solanus Casey, has been one of the busier seasons so far. I'm also on tap to either tie or out right pass my previous record for the most displays in a season. But even I know that such things would not be even happening with out the support of those who believe in me and share that same passion for what I am doing. It is rather humbling given my own limitations to see the look on people's faces when they know I am coming with the project. Even from the ones who have been following me for years. To know that some how I am touching people's lives. It's a good feeling in my own heart to know that people really do enjoy the work I do. That they are looking forward to the next season to see what I am doing. Just as much as I look forward to building the next season and taking it on the road. Thank you for the support you have shown me.

Till next time.

-JM

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Remembering 9-11

Greetings. A few notes about today's blog post. The first part of this post was written a year ago as my reflection of what I remember from 9/11. The second part is a reflection from today as I shared this on my timeline this morning.


I was on my way to work around 7am or so. Getting on to the expressway headed south to Fenton. Looked up in the sky and seeing the sun rise poking though the clouds gave me a very dark feeling. I remember whispering the words "ominous". Something got my attention that morning.

I clocked in at 8am. I was in the "rubber room" as usual. Cinda (my supervisor) along with a few others. Bobby was working the main press which was in another room and had the radio turned on. I heard the first reports of what what happening. After the first plane hit I realized that something far worse had happened. I honestly got overwhelmed and talked to my bosses about going home. They didn't understand it at the time. To be honest I'm not sure Emma and Preston (top people in charge) ever understood what happened to me that day. Then again I'm not sure even after all this time I've ever been able to understand what I felt that day. Either way I probably did my job at the place no favors by leaving. But by the time I got home the second plane had hit. The towers had crumbled. Then I found out about the Pentagon. The rest of the day is a blur. But the biggest feeling that I had was this overwhelming fear. Not so much for myself. But for others. Wondering if we were going to get attacked again. Wondering what could happen next.

As I sit and reflected on this day. I know the world has changed a lot since then. Our nation is fragmented more so than it has ever been. Perhaps we need to come together now before it takes another tragic attack to unite us once again. That's just my take on things I guess. - (9/11/16)

A year later we once again pause and reflect on this day. We should always take a moment to remember not only those who lost their lives that day. But the fire fighters, EMS, police and other volunteers who have lost their lives since that day due to cancer and other issues. 9-11 is a wound that will never fully heal. The impact of this day will last for generations to come. Take a moment to pray for the divisions in this nation. That at some point we would learn to come together instead of allowing petty divisions to ruin who we are. That even in the face of total darkness. That hope would be regained. Even as the storms rage all around us.

Till Next time.

-JM

Reflection 9-7-17

I am reminded once again how powerful Prayer can be in these troubling times. It is a tool for the faithful to seek out wisdom and understanding. To help calm the mind and bring peace to the restless soul. As followers of Christ we are all called to a prayerful life. It is a conversation with God that allows us to open up our hearts to all that troubles us. Their are those who demand that God give miraculous answers. That everything should be handed down on some kind of silver platter. But I personally have found that God answers our prayers not with the blast of a trumpet. But often with the softest of whispers. Often times in such a subtle way that unless one is looking. One will miss it. In many cases it is more about opening up our minds to see something that we might have missed. I find that prayer is a powerful tool that can help face the darkness of this world. One that we should use more often.

Till next time.

-JM

Reflection 9-5-17

So much darkness in this world of ours. Facing tragic events by drawing lines in the sand. Leaders that we count on to guide our nation seem to falter and fail. Or worse we don't even give them a chance to succeed. This profound rush to judgement by giving into our fears and anxiety. Letting those elements dictate how we react or over react. Where is the compassion for our fellow brothers and sisters? Are they lost with the shuffling of political agendas? Where is their voice in this mess that we call our world? Perhaps those of us as messengers of Christ. We should take a bolder stand. Open our hearts and minds to what God would have us do. Even if we spend our time in prayer. Prayers for wisdom of our leadership. Prayers of compassion for those who are not well off. Prayers for peace in this world that celebrates violence. Prayers that those who seek help are able to find resources and that more resources would be made available. We have ownership of what goes on around us. A stake in the fate of this world. As Christ calls us we should open up our hearts more to the will of the Father. Putting our focus into proclaiming our love of Christ not in word. But in compassion and mercy. Proclaiming our love though action to the help those around us. 


Till next time.

-JM

Support for the Project

The Lego Church Project (Face Book Page)

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kc8wzm@gmail.com

First off I want to give a big Thank You to my supporters. The ones who encourage me. The ones who often share my FB posts and tweets when I am talking about the project. The ones who see the passion in my heart for what I do. The ones who believe in the message that I share with the Project. To those who have already donated. It your support that keeps this project going. Even when I'm facing my own personal challenges.

This post will cover donations and other ways to support the Project.

Donations:

Why are they needed?

I am a one man operation as far as the building of the project goes. Given my disability I am unable to drive or work. I rely on Government benefits to make ends meet and over all I don't do too bad for myself considering. However LEGO, even on the secondary market, is not cheap. Given the nature of what I do with the project. Parts wear out over time. Plus their are new parts coming all time that can be put to good use. Given my fixed income. I don't always have extra cash because of price increases in other areas like food.

What kind of donation?

The project relies on people either donating money or donating LEGO parts directly. Personally I've always preferred to accept LEGO directly from people. Often times kids grow out of it and parents then need to figure out what to do. I can help out with that. With the development of services like Pay Pal. It makes donating money much easier. But either format is helpful for me in the long run.

If I donate Money where are you spending it?

Any money I get goes to either LEGO or Bricklink (online market place) for parts that I need.

How can I donate money?

Using the Pay Pal Link is the best way to send money directly. If you don't have access to pay pal or are not a fan of using them. Drop me an e-mail at kc8wzm@gmail.com and we can work something out.

How can I donate LEGO parts directly?

Drop me an e-mail to kc8wzm@gmail.com and I will give you my mailing address.

 Support: 

Their are other ways to support the Project.

Helping me secure a display location and/or proving transportation:

I have a hard time securing locations on my own. With out the help of others to act as a go-between many of my displays would not happen. If you have a place in mind. Talk to them and see if they would like to host the project. Keep in mind I will need help with transportation given that I don't drive. Both for the project and myself. More information on displays can be found here or drop me an e-mail to kc8wzm@gmail.com and I can give you more details. Including types of displays and what kind of rides would I need.

Helping me get the word out about The Project:

Social media is an amazing tool that can be used to reach many people in this world. The Lego Church Project Face Book page is the nexus for what I do. It contains all the photos of the last 18 years. Updates on display locations and building process for each season.

Getting the word out about what I am doing and why I am doing it is as important to me as the build. Having the chance to share my love and passion for the Catholic faith along with my personal mission of disability awareness and reminding people of how important the Mass is to our faith is an amazing thing.

Share The Lego Church Project FB page. Tell people that my work exists. I'm also always looking for chances to share my work in the media. Such a TV/Radio or even print and pod casts. I haven't had much luck getting to Catholic Media. So let people know that this is something you want to see featured. Every little bit helps.

But as always the best way to support my work is though Prayer. Please keep me in prayer. This isn't something for myself. This something that gives glory to God in all things. With out Christ. This Project would not happen.

Once again. Thank you for all the support. It means a lot to me.

-jm

Making Disability Disappear

Down syndrome is disappearing

The link above is to a news story put out by CBS. The key points of the story for the sake of this post is that thanks to testing. Most women who find out their child might have Down syndrome have abortions. The story says "close to 100%". 

As someone who has a mild form of cerebral palsy this is disturbing to me on so many levels. That instead of showing love and compassion. We become monsters of our own creation in deciding who has a right to live. But also who should not be allowed to live. That seems to be the key element of abortion in general. This feeling that a child is better off dead than being allowed to exist at all. Doesn't matter what the justification is. So long as that "choice" ends in death. To think that the only way we can prevent disability is to simply eliminate the child. I am truly at a loss for words as I ponder on what I've read in the few days.

To deal with some kind of disability, no matter what type or form, can be a profound challenge. I know it has been for me in my life. While I am blessed in so many ways. I know that their are families who have a much bigger struggle. In them I see this deep well of love that comes from their hearts. It is something that is shown even in their moments of frustration. Their is a compassion and a sense of purpose. This unconditional love that has no limits. That their child brings a deep sense of joy. The idea that a mother would want to destroy a life that may not even be born with a disability is disturbing to me on so many levels. This notion that in order to save a life we must take a life away.

But I worry for a much darker future for those of us who have a disability. I worry that at some point those who want to eliminate disability though abortion will seek to end the lives of those who are already born. Forcing euthanasia on those of us who have our challenges. That able bodied people will feel that someone like me does not deserve the same right to life as the person standing next to me.  The more that I read stories like the one I linked to. It really makes me wonder about the future of this world. Perhaps I am over reacting. I honestly pray that I am wrong. But I'm starting to see indications that my fears may not be that far off from reality. If anything the two stories I have linked to shows. It is a strong indication of the future we are heading into. One that not only embraces the culture of death. But encourages that culture on those who are most vulnerable and at risk. We as followers Christ must speak out against this culture even if it means being hated for it. We cannot allow Christians who support abortion (directly or indirectly) weaken our resolve.

It is my prayer that Christians who support abortion would open up their hearts and realize that they are doing more harm than good. That these stories would serve as a wake up call that a dark future awaits those who are most vulnerable That we can no longer remain silent. Our voices must be heard. If we don't raise our voices now. Then we might not be able to raise them later.

Till then.

-JM

Being Reminded

I am reminded tonight that when their are times when the road is unknown, the path not as clear as we would like it. The evil one will use that to his advantage. To try and derail us from the path of Christ. Using fear and doubt in our hearts to try and stop us from seeing the amazing glory of Christ our Savior. To try and convince us that our fate is sealed and the outcome is all in the negative. The evil one will try to plant images in our hearts of every bad thing that could happen.

Tonight I am also reminded of how important prayer is. That it is a tool to combat the evil with in our own hearts. That it truly is the light that shines on in the darkest places. That by asking for the Holy Spirit to help us in our time of need. That it becomes a beacon and a lantern that can guide us though the biggest storms in our hearts. That prayer is a reminder that above all else. Our Father in Heaven loves us deeper than we could ever hope to realize. Those who dismiss the power of prayer fail to understand it's important to those who openly, and boldly proclaim Christ. That we have embraced something far greater than ourselves.

Every storm that we face in our lives. Their is always a chance the evil one will take advantage. It is a time when we are at our weakest. Yet by embracing Christ our Savor. By embracing God the Father. Along with the power of the Holy Spirit. We become strong again and that we can face our storms head on. In the middle of my own storm tonight. I was reminded of this in a powerful way. I ask as always for your prayers for me. For the things that I am involved in. Knowing that I will pray for you as well.

Till then.

-JM

The Ride

People my weight are not suppose to be able to ride blocks let alone miles... I've said it before. I'm 450lbs. It is who I am. My weight issues have been the stuff of legends. But that is a story for another day.

Fact is people my weight class in theory shouldn't be able to go on rides of my nature and survive. But I do it often. The fact that I can is rather amazing. I've had my beach cruiser style bike for over eight years. My rides are sometimes the stuff of legends. Since I've had this bike I've put on way more miles than I have ever expected to do so. To the point that I sometimes stop in to Bicycle Village on the ride. Which when all is said and done is a seven mile round trip for me.  They know the history of me and the bike. They know that when I go for a ride. It is always a ride that most people would not consider. Bike like that is only rated for about 250lbs. Over the years I've had to replace parts on it. Such as the crankshaft I broke last week.

Riding for me is a major release of energy. It allows me to get out into the world around me and surround myself with the sights and sounds of what is in this world. Over the years it has helped me recover from some of my more epic and dramatic falls. Helping me though bouts of arthritis pain that has developed in both of my knees. Partly because of the weight. Partly because I keep falling. It is also one of the few things I can do to help drown out the tinnitus. It creates background noise that gives me some relief for a bit from the constant tone that I hear. Riding is something that I truly enjoy doing. I have a lot of fun with it. Keep in mind some of my long rides can be ten mile round trips. Short rides for me are around three or four mile round trips. If you do that even two days a week. The miles can add up rather quickly. It's also rather funny with me. I complain the next day when I'm not achy from one of my more infamous "insanity rides." Such as the twelve mile loop I do that takes me around the campus of Saginaw Valley State University and back to my apartment. I don't do it often. But even that is a fun challenge for me. Weight loss, while important, isn't the primary goal. The ride helps my joints out. Also helps with my over all endurance and stamina. Along with a natural way to deal with my anxiety and depression.

This past week has been a week of "unknowns". This last crankshaft failure has brought me back to a reality that my cruiser is probably on borrowed time. I'm not easy one stuff at all. The bike is no exception. You ride hard enough at some point stuff will start to break. Which is part of the unknown. The question is should I repair the bike and ride things out. The frame is in great shape. But the bike is battered and beat up from years of heavy use. Some other stuff like the rims are going to need to be looked at as well. But also my balance isn't what it use to be. The cerebral palsy is catching up making me more of a fall risk than ever before. Yeah, I know the weight isn't doing me any favors on that issue either. But in the last six or seven years I've had some pretty major falls. Often taking direct hits on to my knees. My left knee isn't still back 100% from last year's stuff.

I've thought about getting a three-wheel bike. Long as I can ride that is all that matters to me. But I need one that is more or less industrial class. A bike made of stronger materials that can handle or at least tolerate some of my more longer rides. They make bikes that are rated up to 500lbs. But they are by no means cheap. Looking at least 800$ to $1000 for the bikes I've looked at. Not sure how I would be able to afford one. My parents can probably help out. But even still that is a lot of money even for them. That is one of the other unknowns. Figuring out how to pay for such a ride.

It's in the hands of God. All I can do is pray for the answers that I seek. Fact is I need to have some kind of transportation that is not connected to any of my rides. I need to have some level of freedom with out a car and the bike does just that. Not being able to use the bike has been hard on me. A level of frustration that is hard to describe but I suspect people know where I'm coming from. Pray that something can develop soon. I miss the ride already. Last time I took that fall last year. I was on the bike with in a few days. So not being able to ride is driving me up the wall....

Till next time.

-JM

Few quick updates 8/6/17

Here are a few quick updates and info that don't fit into a full blog post:

Wanted to give everyone an update on me from Last Sunday's entry. I'm still having some issues with my left knee and leg. Though over all I'm feeling a little bit better. My nerves on the other hand are shot to hades. Not from riding the bike. But just from the entire falling aspect. The more I fall the more worried I get that I'm going to break something.

The bike has not been repaired. At this point I'm not sure if we are going to repair it or out right replace it. Though I'm leaning on getting a replacement bike. Probably an industrial grade three-wheel. Problem of course is figuring out how to PAY for it. Those start at around 800$ for one that can hold up to 500lbs. So please keep this issue in prayer that something can develop.

Also on the prayer list is more displays with transport for the Lego Church Project! Something of this nature needs to be shared with other and not kept in my apartment.

Still looking for some donations! Either direct LEGO bricks or funds to be able to buy specific parts via BrickLink. If you have parts to donate directly: Drop me an e-mail over at kc8wzm@gmail.com and I will send you the info! Check out the Donations link or "What Can You Do to Help" Blog

Thanks to everyone who has helped out. Offered up kind words or even shared/retweeted various postings of mine. I am always thankful to those who support what I do. Never thought I would take the project to where it has been.

That's all for now.

-JM

I'm blessed to be alive.

I'm sitting here still pretty shaken up over 24 hours later. Amazed that despite how bad I'm hurting. That things didn't go dramatically worse. Given what happened it could have gone in a very different direction and you wouldn't be reading this blog post.

Kat was taking off with her mom and aunt out of town. Which is no big deal. My plan was to do one of my infamous "insanity" bike rides that would take me around 10 miles give or take. After taking it over with my mom and asking to borrow some money so I could get a bite to eat. She insisted that I trim it down to five miles. Which I agreed.

On the Beach Cruiser I have I tend to take side walks. Bay Rd in Saginaw is not a bike friendly street. Very busy traffic. Side walks are a must. Most times I take the south bound side of the walks because it's more of a straight shot. Pretty easy to move around and most times no real things I need to navigate. In this case their were a few issues I ran into that I felt would be less than fun to try and move around. For a five mile trip or so I stop at Bay and Tittabawassee and then turn around on the same side of the road. In this case I decided to cross and take the other side most of the way back.

A few hours after being in the area and just going around it was on my ride back almost a mile and a half from home that I had the problem. On a pedal bike their are a lot of things that can and often times will go wrong. Most common is either the chain or the tires. Rare is the crankshaft or pedals. I was just about to cross a drive entrance I was pointed at an angle to reach the next section of side walk when I felt my left pedal give way and heard it hit the ground. Next thing I know I'm on the ground on top of the bike almost in traffic on Bay. I landed in an odd way with my left knee taking a direct hit and my right bicep feeling like I had been impaled by part of the handle bar.

I've fallen before. It is a constant danger with me. This isn't the first time I've had the crank break. In fact over the 8 years I've had the bike this is the third one that has given out in the same way and spot. I was flat on the bike for a few mins before cars pulled up and people helped me to get up. They called MMR and I was checked out. No broken bones. All soft tissue damage. You fall as may times as I have. You know what your body will do. You know what kind of damage to expect.

But it still shakes you to the core. I have no idea how close I got to being in Bay Rd. From my best guess it was pretty damn close. I'm beat up. I'm hurting all over. But I'm very much alive. Very much blessed. Another half a foot and it would be a different story. Rather sobering thought. Still this was one of the bad one. But By the Grace of God I'm still standing.

I end this with a little appeal. I'm still looking for help with the Lego Church Project. See "What can you do to help?" Would mean a lot to me. Thankful for the support I do have. Right now I'm just trying to heal up and rest.

-JM

Lego Church: What I need

Little under a month ago I posted over here that I was still accepting either LEGO Bricks/Parts or monetary donations for the Lego Church Project. However I never went into full detail of what is I'm looking to get at some point.

This is a partial list based on some ideas I'm toying with currently and some primary parts that I do need to replace with in the next year or so due to wear and tear. With some reasons as to why I'm looking for them.

Unless noted using the basic "stud" measurement format.

-Basic Bricks in Red, Blue, White, yellow: in various sizes including 2x4, 2x2, 1x4, 1x6, 1x1, 1x2. These are the core blocks that I use. Out of all of them I probably go though more 2x4, and 2x2 red bricks. You would think that I would need larger sizes. But working with with what I do. Sometimes its easier to take care of issues using the smaller sizes. These are the bricks that get abused the most. Keep in mind when I'm looking up on Bricklink. I'm always looking for used. In most cases they are still decent enough shape and have a little character to them still. I also use a lot of white parts for the alter and such. Sadly they do get sun damaged over time.

-basic plates: info pretty much same as the above. For these I often need the smaller sizes such as 1x2 and 2x2. These get used for a lot of the detail work. But I also use some of the bigger plates as filler for the floors. The longer 2x?? get used for longer custom built beams that keep the project together. At some point I would like to be able to the full first row of the roof grid in plates. I think that would shave off a pound or two and also make the project much more sound in terms of building.

-Building an impressive and proper pipe organ. I think some of the older parishes that still have the Pipe organs are rather neat from a building stand point. To be able to do something that is dramatic and impressive would be fun to attempt. I know from past ideas that I don't have enough parts to pull off something like this. But praying that I can try at some point.

-More translucent bricks in many colors. Their are some sections which I like to have clear windows. But their are some sections where a translucent brick would work/look better.

The reality is that LEGO. Even used is costly for someone on a fixed income. I'm not one to ask for help. Either for stuff with the project, transportation, or even asking for help in setting up display sites.

If you have LEGO that you are looking to donate directly drop me an e-mail at kc8wzm@gmail.com and I will send you my address.

If you would like to donate money you can send it to this link: http://paypal.me/LegoChurchProject.

If you would like more info on my over all vision for the Lego Church Project. Check out the blog post "My Vision for the Project."

My thanks to everyone who has given me the support needed to make this project possible. I am deeply humbled.

-JM

Donations update

Recently over Twitter I've been asked if I'm still taking donation for the Lego Church Project.

The answer is: YES. Any money donated to the PayPal account will allow me to replace existing bricks that have worn out and are no longer use able. Keep in mind my collection, thanks to donations, expands well over several decades. The Project moves around a lot during a typical season and that can cause parts to wear out. In some rare cases those parts can break! The list of stuff I'm always needing to replace is long.

I am also still willing to accept donations directly of LEGO parts. In fact in many ways I would rather take the parts over the donations. For more information on donating LEGO.. check out "What Can You do to Help?" Blog post!

Thanks to everyone for your help and kindness means the world to me.

-JM

Our Older Generation

Over the years I've done a lot of displays. Once in a while a door opens up and you get to take the project to a place that isn't a church or other function. This past weekend I had a very neat and blessed chance to take the Season 18 Project to Caretel Inns. It is an Assisted Living facility. I was at the Bay City, MI location.

I've often said the project has no age limit. That sometimes the biggest impact I have is not with the younger generation. But the older one. That for them they relive their life though my work. They are the ones who remember the time when the parishes use to be filled with people. When their had to be more than one Mass on Sunday to fill the needs of the parish ministry. Those days are long past. Yet here I am with my project full of people taking part in the Mass. It is something that touches deep into the soul of who we are. To see the residents of this place. To see the smiles on their face. The excitement in their hearts. For me it was a humbling experience that I shall not forget. The display went by so well that it looks like I will be back with Season 19 next year.

We should never forget the Older Generation. For they still have the knowledge and the wisdom that they can teach us. This is a generation we should always have the deepest respect for. This weekend was humbling in how the project was received. I am very blessed and thankful. This has been a powerful season for my work. I can't wait till the next display.

My thanks to Steven for setting things up and helping with the transportation.

-JM

My vision for the Project

On Nov 27th of last year I was interviewed by WJRT which is out of Flint, MI. It was the first time I've ever been on TV talking about the project. The last few times I've been in the media it was in print. Including a few years ago a story that went to the APwire via the Saginaw News/Mlive.com even going so far as to making a blurb in USA Today. Since that time I've been wondering what else I can do with the project.

The displays of course are one of the most important aspects of what I do. They allow me to showcase my work. But even then finding locations and the transportation to make them possible is a profound challenge. The primary way to do this is to develop contacts and partnerships with parishes and leaders. All of the displays of the past few years have been done in this fashion. However securing sites and having them commit to rides is not always easy. More so when a location doesn't fully understand what I'm asking. Or the reasons behind me doing it. This creates a high level of internal frustration on my part. Some of which is a direct result of my own limits.

Currently I'm doing around three or four displays per season. Which really isn't a lot given the nature of what I am doing with the project. For me if the host locations provided transportation I could easily do around six or seven displays from May to December. With a decent mix of multi week runs and single events. Because of the nature of how I do the project every year. Some of those events could turn into multi year runs. Such as Christ the Good Shepherd which has hosted the project for Christmas every year since 2003. That is the core of my frustrations. Being able to locate good locations and have the support to pull off an amazing display which includes either all or part of the transportation. So far I've been rather blessed in that respect. But that brings up an important element of what I do. Every year is a new project. Each season tells a different story. So if I'm coming back to a location I was at the previous year. Then that means I have a brand new building to show off.

It is also important for me to be able to share the message of the project. Which is why I don't mind the media attention I have gotten. So long as I am able to share what God is doing for me then it is very worth while. The problem of course is that when your doing a display and you have a flood of people. You don't always get the chance to share with them what the mission is. In fact I've had many people get out right surprised that I have a mild form of cerebral palsy. It catches them off guard and makes my work stand out even more. But the moments to plant seeds are very fleeting at most. I've often thought about trying to create some kind of talk that I could give about what I feel is important in raising awareness and hope for those of us who deal with challenges. A renewed sense of purpose. I've seen this first hand in some of the people who look into the project. To realize that they are able to do more than what their limits suggest. My problem of course is that I'm not fully sure how to realize this goal of mine. I'm honestly not sure on how to proceed and let alone develop the contacts needed to pull something off. But either way. I want to expand the role of the Project because I see it something very important in this day and age.

The Lego Church Project is a dream of mine turned into a reality. I would ask for your prayers and continued support for what I am doing. I pray that I can expand the role of the project in a way that deeply touches the lives of those around me. This is an art project. But it is also a passion of mine. The message of what I am doing is just as important to me as building of the project. I see it as a very neat way to reach out and evangelize. I once again thank everyone who has given donations or have given support in other ways. I am deeply humbled by this.

If you have any further questions drop me an e-mail at: kc8wzm@gmail.com.

-JM

Reflection for June 1st.

The world is a simmering pot that has been trying to boil over for a while now. With each passing year we seem to get closer to that edge. Lately things have started to get way more out of hand. I have seen people on FB suggesting violence is indeed to solution to the problem. Even assassination of world leaders. That it is OK to show disrespect in profound ways because you disagree with the other side's view point. I look around me and their is total anger in people's hearts. I see fear that has been generated because sometimes social media takes things way to far.

As I sit and reflect on the negative and hostile emotions around me. I am reminded of things that I have said in past reflections. About surrendering to Christ all things. To turn over our worries. Our anger. Our fears to Christ. To pray that our leaders would be granted profound wisdom to act in the best ways for the people. That party lines would not matter so much as the human factor.
But something else dawned on me. For us Catholics one of the best forms of prayer is asking Our Mother Mary for her help. One of the things that she told the children of Fatima was to pray the Rosary for Peace. Perhaps that can be extended to peace in our own hearts so that we can properly and wisely deal with the chaos around us. Peace for our world leaders and for those who have anger in their hearts.

I've also been told that Praying is worthless. That prayer does nothing in face of the issues at hand. I could not disagree more. Prayer unlocks the answers that we otherwise would not see. To find that inner peace to confront our challenges. To help fight the fear and anxiety in our troubled times. To remind us how important *all* life is.

Some days it feels like the world is crumbing in around us. But on our darkest of days that we are reminded that Christ is indeed the light that shines in that darkness.

Holy Mary, Mother of God, Pray for us.
Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, Pray for us.
Holy Spirit, guide us.
God the Father we thank you.
Amen.


-JM

Eye on Research

Please see THIS post if you want more information on what Visual Snow is.

I belong and help out with a Facebook group for Visual Snow. Something that I've been doing for a few years now. Lately their has been a bit of a debate about raising money for on going research. With some even going so far to say that such research is a waste of money. Personally I think such negative views are extremely counter productive to the overall goals. Distracting us from the bigger picture at play.

Eye on Vision Foundation which is run by Jen Ambrose has been working hard for years to raise enough money to fund a full research into this condition. She like many others suffers from a more severe form of it which sometimes limits her over all vision and has a direct impact on her daily life.

My Visual Snow these days is way more mild though their are some days when my vision is directly impacted because of it. More so at night. However when thinking about the research. I don't see it from a perspective of myself. I want the research to very much move forward. Their are many of us who suffer with this condition who are in far worse shape than me.

Any time we conduct research into anything. Their is always a chance that a path may develop and new doors being opened where they didn't exist before. Medical journals have been written on "accidental" discoveries that have changed the way we operate. I see the research into visual snow not just helping us. But with other conditions such as tinnitus. A condition that readers of this blog know I suffer with on a more sever level.

Overall I feel that the efforts of Eye On Vision Foundation are extremely important to the visual snow community. I know that Mrs. Ambrose has spend a considerable amount of time and money into this effort. Those of us who deal with this condition want answers. We want this condition to be accepted as something legitimate. But we also want treatments and possible cures. We want help and so far Eye on Vision is the only group doing this.

If you would like to help out Eye On Vision Foundation. Which is a 501(c)3 origination. Please check out their donation page HERE.

-JM

Storms in our lives

Note: This was written as a FB post.

In the storms of our lives we must surrender all to Christ. Even when we cannot see a clear path out of the storm. It is often said that Christ is our light. This is very much true in this day and age. The evil one will use every trick in the playbook to try and build a wall between us and Christ. Often times it is way more subtle than people realize. A distraction here and there that can lead to total panic and anxiety. Sometimes the storm lasts far longer than what we would like. Often times it seems like the storm will never pass. No matter what. We should thank the Lord for all that He has done. Along with thanking Him for all He Will Do. Their is a praise and worship song that came to mind as I was on the ride today. "Amen Amen our hearts cry, His word is true! All that the Lord has said. He will do." I surrender to Christ all that is going on right now. Just not for myself. But for those closest to me. Lord give us the strength, the wisdom, and the courage stand up and ride the out the storms.

-jm

Not an easy road

 It is not always easy when we have a chronic condition that makes taking part in every day life a struggle. To go on with our lives as if nothing is wrong. Yet knowing that our lives are by no means normal. We wake up each morning. Wondering how our issues will directly effect us. Wondering if today will be a good day or a day where we want to crawl and hide. Our struggles are very much real. Even if others don't fully understand them. 

I was born with a mild case of Cerebral Palsy. Because of that I have some mobility issues along with a host of other challenges. Too many to list in this blog post. In addition to the Visual Snow and it's related issues. I also suffer from hearing loss as a result of the extremely severe case of tinnitus. In fact on any typical day the noise is far worse than the snow. On top of that I also deal with moderate anxiety/panic attacks. This is the reality that I live in. These are the challenges that I face every single day. My own worse enemy happens to be the person I see every time I look into the mirror.

Over the years the Lego Church Project has become a focal point for me. A deep statement about not letting challenges define you. When I first developed Visual Snow around 2011/12 the static was such a distraction that I wasn't sure I could work on the project. No clear idea if the VS would effect my ability to do something that I love. As you can tell from the blog and the FB page. This is not an easy project to work on.  I've been doing this project for 18 years now. I refuse to let any of my challenges stop me from what I am doing. VS and the other stuff I face are just part of who I am. But they are by no means the full story. I would rather be defined by my faith. My project. My life. I don't want to be defined by my challenges. I would rather use my project and my challenges to raise awareness. To show that no matter what you face you can do something creative with your life. That God can and will use your talents in amazing and creative ways.

When you deal with any kind of chronic and on going condition. Life can be a struggle. I had a very important choice to make. One that I still make every day. I would rather do my best to rise above my challenges and to live my life the best that I can. The road is by no means easy. Even for me. But I take comfort in the fact that my challenges have not stopped me from doing the things that I love. That I have a deep passion for. What helps me to survive the rough days is my faith in Christ. My enjoyment of the Catholic faith and all that it is. Taking comfort that with Christ I know I can ride out the storms that seen to toss me around just a little too much for my liking.

I close this post out with this: People ask me how I survive with my challenges. My answer is always the same. "By the Grace of God I am still Standing."

A Deep Passion

I've been doing displays with the Lego Church Project for eighteen years now. It is an amazing time for me to be able to showcase my talents and my mission. If  the building of the project is the telling of a story. Then the displays themselves is the sharing of that story. 

Their is always a level of excitement any time I have the chance to show my project. I have fans who have followed me over the years and they are always asking me what kind of project I'm working on. They look forward to seeing how I out do myself from the previous years. They know I do this yearly and understand that the project the following year will not be the same. 

When I bring the project to a new location. Their is an extra bit of excitement. For me it is the chance to see and visit another parish community. To visit with them and see how that parish does things. From the lay out of the building to the way the Mass is presented. For the project itself it is the chance show my work to a new audience. People that might have heard about my work but have never seen it in person. 

I have a mild case of cerebral palsy. I also suffer from severe tinnitus and visual snow. Doing these displays allows me to share my messages of disability awareness- that God can and use your talents even you have a challenge or disability. It also allows me to share my faith though the church itself. My love and my passion for what we believe in. 

One of the comments that I always get is "the church is always full of people". Our parishes are struggling a lot these days. Many have stopped going to Mass for various reasons. The Project is full of people because it is a reminder of how important our faith is to us. But it is also a prayer that more people would come home to the faith. That our parishes would be filled again. For me the project is a creative way to reach out to people. I don't see the church as it is. But rather how it *should* be.

I close this blog post with this: The Lego Church Project is a deep passion of mine. I am building faith one brick at a time. I enjoy the building of it. I enjoy sharing it. I am thankful to any place willing to host a display. Along with the people willing to help to make sure that happens. 

-JM