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Saturday, June 25, 2022
Poetry: As I Walk
Rough day
I've always been pretty honest about the challenges I have with mental health. This post was written yesterday after a very bad anxiety attack that I'm still feeling the effects from. This is the reflection that came from that.
I've had a rough day. Before the news was unfolding, I had a fire up of some neurological issues. When the Visual Snow gets rough makes seeing a bit of a challenge. Also means the light sensitivity and the afterimages goes up a few notches. Such stuff then in turn fuels the anxiety so that what would be normal "minor" annoyances like a computer acting up. Turns into a full-blown fire breathing dragon. You do what you can to keep your head above water. Inside you are a jumbled wreck and your tolerance for B.S. goes out the window. You know full well that you're in a spot where you have more in common with an angry snapping turtle than a believer in Christ. It is hard to remain charitable with such a passion for what is going on.
Friday, June 24, 2022
Society of Violence
I'm sitting here with a lot on my mind. Which isn't anything that unusual if you know me to any degree. With all that I see and feel it allows me to put some focus on prayer. Even if it's just me having a conversation with God.
The world by and large is a violent place. Our society has this nasty and rather unhealth obsession with it. We (as a society) encourage it when something happens that we disagree with. A vile kind of extremism that both sides of any given debate will quietly endorse. The logic being is if X does Y even in the past then it is perfectly fine to threaten and intimidate here in the present. Making excuses and justifications as if this is something to be rewarded and celebrated.
As world events unfold, I've been told more than a few times that the root of this evil is in fact religion. Given who I am this is something that I completely disagree with. Yet I cannot help but feel the anger and fear that exists in our world and the overall temptation to lash out. Such feelings are downright scary in the age when social media can dictate our desires and actions.
In my own reflections on this I've come to accept that it is my faith in Christ that tempers me. With my focus on Christ, it keeps me grounded in what is truly important in this world. My passion and desire to serve Christ using the talents that God has given me. This desire allows me to put the events of the world into a perspective of clarity and understanding that only the Holy Spirit can give.
Tuesday, June 7, 2022
When I'm Sitting Inside...
Friday, June 3, 2022
Reflection June 1, 2022
At the time of this reflection was written. The United States had seen two major "Mass shooting" events less than a week apart. A scary time for society as a whole. This is the reflection that came from that:
Pentecost is fast approaching, and more violence rocks our country. While we wait on our leaders to take meaningful action. The time for us is now to seek out the Holy Spirit. We really need it right now more than ever. We need the Wisdom of the Holy Spirit to guide our leaders. That they would do what is right and just. Even if that is not going to win people over. Wisdom for everyone to decide that we are going to turn away from this culture of death we constantly live in. To the point that it has become some kind of deep obsession. Praying for those hearts would be changed to move closer to God and to really and honestly move into fully supporting a culture that promotes life. Even if that means giving up some of our society's most prized obsessions.